This morning, I started with a hill climb, then hit some headwinds as I rode a new route (in just under two hours). The wind was a big challenge for me and I felt that the bike needed to be adjusted to fit me properly (which I did after work today). I probably worked harder than I have before, but I was miserable.
I realize that I need to work on my inner demons that keep feeding me negative thoughts...my attitude was so bad during parts of the ride, because of the difficulty. My friend J, who is an experienced cyclist, says that I am just not used to "suffering physically". I've never really been an athlete, so I somehow missed the lessons of suffering through some tough training periods in order to gain improvement. So, now when I am challenged while riding, I find myself doubting if I can keep going onward. But that is just a mentality that I can work on and replace with a more positive outlook during a challenging ride. I have to.
I went to my doctor for a routine check-up. I've lost 6 lbs since I was in last April and my blood pressure was great (it had been creeping upward).
Next up: a shorter, but intense ride on Wednesday, then a longer Saturday ride. El Tour is 26 days away!