It has been about one month since my last official weigh-in and I have lost 1 pound over the past month. I am now at 294. For a variety of reasons I have mentioned earlier, I have just not been as hardcore as I was in previous months. It seems a bit depressing, but there are times, like today when I feel okay about it. As The Big Lebowski himself said "The Dude abides".
I attended a funeral yesterday. One of my closest friend's father passed away. He was a great man and I was around him many times over the past year. The funeral was very moving and had its joyous moments, but this is my third July funeral in three years and I find that they hit me pretty hard emotionally (maybe I am finally becoming a softie). I sat there with my wife, daughter and two boys and just felt a tremendous amount of gratitude for my life, my family and friends, my health, and God.
I didn't consciously think of my weight/fitness improvements during this time, but after the service, I saw some people that I hadn't seen since April. Paul said "my gosh, you have lost a ton of weight!?...how did you do this so fast? I saw you in April and you look so different!". My friend Alesha has been in Italy for the past month and she felt I looked different since before her trip.
So, I won't go into depression about a measly 1 pound loss over the last month, eventhough I had gotten used to losses of 12-13 pounds per month. As some of you have suggested, if this a stressful time (and I am very healthy otherwise), then I should just let it be for now and abide (one of my favorite words).
My goal for this 3-day weekend is to just enjoy myself and time with the family. We got a great deal on a weekend stay at a lazy river resort. This is our fourth stay at a place like this and it seems a great way for us to hang out with the kids in our hot desert sun...away from the computer and blackberry and ipods, keeping cool as we float along on innertubes, talking and splashing along under the palm trees. I know not everyone can do this either and we are grateful for the brief luxury of it all.
I am also grateful to everyone of you that encourages and advises me. Some of you I have known in person for years, and some of you are my new and valuable friends in this odd blogging world. But I thank you all for caring enough about me to float along with me on this journey I'm on.
Have a great weekend everyone, and I hope that you can experience some peace and fun this weekend.