I feel like George Bailey from It's A Wonderful Life. He stayed in one place to help others and eventually felt that he had denied himself and had nothing to show for it. And in the first act of that movie, he is grumpy.
He has no energy and just wants to drink and complain.
He thinks his friends have turned against him or taken him for granted.
He's negative and wants everyone around him to take notice.
I am George Bailey right now.
2010 will go down as the year that our family gave and gave to others and ended with feelings of isolation and weariness. It's tough for me as a 45-year-old man to face that. I see that it is hard on my wife, but she is soldiering on. But it kills me that my own kids are coming to that understanding as well.
Because of my frustration, I am not fun to be around.
I have now missed two workout days!
I am eating like I'm in a contest.
I have now MISSED TWO WORKOUT DAYS!
But (heavy sigh, then forced smile), looking on the bright side:
My marriage is in excellent shape. In fact,
We are all perfectly healthy.
We are all on vacation next week.
I have not been this physically fit in 25 years.
My kids excel at school and are happy, well-mannered and playful.
The bills are paid and we still have money under the mattress.
God loves us and is getting us ready for something else in 2011.
So, I will shake off my grumpiness and have fun with my family.
How will I do this? Sure, I'll flip the mental switch and just "act happier" until my emotions follow suit. But I'll also punish (or treat) myself with physical workouts while on this holiday break. I missed two workouts and I will make them up and get in even more mileage.
What's that saying?..."Living well is the best revenge!" Add a dash of humility, gratitude and compassion for others and I just might become a decent human being someday.