There is a difference between giving up and not moving forward. I anticipate moving forward again with training for another 5k, then 10k in January. But I have not been exercising for awhile.
I started this blog in 2009. I wrote a lot of posts and read/commented on many posts. I trained and raced in El Tour de Tucson (34-mile route). But my wife was working about 60 hours per week, my kids were in different schools that weren't challenging or fulfilling and I had A LOT of free time. In hindsight, we were all doing our own thing and not too happy.
In 2010, I raced more, lost a lot of weight and learned that I can develop new healthy habits. The kids got into a new smarty-pants school, which was very challenging for all of us. In a few other areas, we worked very hard and ended the year with a major transition in our lives. We ended the year feeling worn out, unhappy and facing a lot of question marks ahead.
In 2011, my motivation was elusive. I remember starting to write several posts about my goals for 2011, but never finishing them because I just didn't have much motivation. Things were too challenging in other areas of our lives. So, I stayed at home much more, ate whatever and gained back a lot of weight.
Though I had some successful events this year (running a 10k, 30 Days of Biking), I am coming to think of 2011 as my "redshirt season".
The term "redshirt" is used to describe a student-athlete who does not participate in competition in a sport for an entire academic year.
At age 45, I am clearly not a college athlete. But it is fair to say that I spent much of this year on the bench (and even healing up a bit).
I read posts that call for "no excuses" and that "time in training is really better for your family in the long term". I get it.
I've also seen training become obsessive, which can be challenging for families and marriages. We all have different priorities, different motivating forces and different lifestyles.
My priorities? Being a good husband, a good father, helping with homework and chores, paying the bills, doing my job well and being present. I can do that and be overweight. It's just nothing to blog about.
Can I carve out 30 minutes a day, 5-6 days/week for exercise? Sure. I have to. I've got to get back in that routine. And I will. I am finding my motivation again and have been looking at training schedules and races for 2012.
Thanks for staying with me and encouraging me along the way.